Suicide Part 2 – A Father’s Story of His Loving Step-Daughter’s Suicide Due to Lack of Adequate Pain Control


My Stepdaughter committed suicide 4 years ago because of continuously being treated like a drug addict by some of her family and her doctors.  All along she suffered from Lupus and Fibromyalgia, which I believe was brought on by a deadly car crash at 18.  She suffered from under-treated pain since that time. She told me on multiple occasions that between that which I was being put through and what they were putting her through, that she was not going to live her life in such a hell brought on by these people. The end finally came after a shattered ankle left her with severe pain that the doctors refused to acknowledge and treat with adequate pain control.  She just lived in too much pain for the majority of her young life. And the actions of others directly contributed to her deciding to end her life rather than to live the life she was living in misery. 

As a retired Police officer, I worked indirectly close to the DEA. You people do not have a clue how thrilled you are making the illegal Heroin trade.

And I think of my late Stepdaughter all the time as you continue on with this movement to outlaw opiates! I miss my Stepdaughter so much and some of us will continue on the fight to protect our right to necessary pain control and to retain function without fear of these witch hunters trying to convince us to commit suicide. And they are trying to do exactly THAT! 

And just because the DEA has miserably failed with their so-called War on drugs, what do they want? Are trying to deprive us sick people of our Constitutional Rights of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness?  Professional Physicians taking away our medicines that give us temporary relief of this horrible malady of Chronic Pain! May God have mercy on their miserable souls they that seek to destroy us Chronic Pain Sufferers only and little hope of temporary relief of this horrible sickness.

I have taken this opportunity to share my heartbreaking story in hopes these witch hunting Opiate ill informed skeptics will read and understand that I would have no life without Medically prescribed Opiates by a physician who cares and strictly monitors with monthly exams along with urine and blood tests. And that a little more compassion from the Medical Field and its representatives could have saved my beautiful Stepdaughters life. My wife is no longer with me.  I live alone and am completely independent, but only through the use of opioids to control the pain.

I have taken Oxycontin for 14 years.  I have had 24 major surgeries in 10 years. I have so much physical pain I can not even get out of bed with out pain meds and when I run out (as I have before when my previous doctor cut my pain meds) I just lay in bed praying the Lord relieve me of this horrible condition and I pray God that these pain medicine (Opiates) skeptics never go through what I go through everyday of my life.  When the only thing you have to do is threaten what help I get! Shame on you! There will always be drug abuse and as the so called war on drugs has failed as this will! All you do is stoke and aid the drug pushers business to new heights in the Black Market of Heroin while depriving legitimate Chronic Pain Patients, such as myself of the much needed medicines and the relief it brings temporarily!  

If not for the government’s so-called “War” on drugs, my beautiful daughter would still be here with me.  If she knew I was sharing her story, she’d be happy to play an integral part in bringing some normalcy back to medicine, doctors, and their patients.  She was the type that would have laid down her life to make a difference.  She has and she deserves whatever justice can come out of the short, but loving journey of life. Despite her continuous pain, she led a good life.  She had a good career, a loving husband, and was very successful.  She just couldn’t take the pain any longer. I knew how miserable she was.  She told me every day.  

I’m praying that telling her story will make a difference.  Our government needs to do the right thing. 



Wayne S. Swanson II

2 thoughts on “Suicide Part 2 – A Father’s Story of His Loving Step-Daughter’s Suicide Due to Lack of Adequate Pain Control

  1. Such a compelling story from a time when the CDC hadn’t yet released its statistics showing that physician prescriptions reached a peak in 2010, and steadily declined each year through 2015. While opioid overdoses continued to skyrocket, we have illicit fentanyl and heroin as culprits. Can only wonder why their “Guidelines” sought the very people like your daughter and yourself, who legitimately need pain management.

    Hippocrates said, “Divine is the task to relieve pain.”

    May God forgive healthcare providers who turn their backs on the patient:physician bond, something that has never been so broken as it is today. May our medical students learn to keep their oath to care for patients in pain. It’s not too much to ask: to avoid iatrogenic (physician-induced) complications, but also not to “knowingly” cause patient harm by unilaterally forcing patients to suffer, without informed consent or tapering.

    On behalf of the medical profession, I apologize. I’m ashamed.


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